if you think you don't deserve it, well then you don't deserve it. even if you have what you've always wanted, you will lose it. the fear comes in you and from you. you've never been threatened. your own fear blinds you.
we all need to learn to live outside of our comfort zone and be independent in any way. when you are deeply relying on someone or the environment itself, you are actually authorize them to take control over you. you are what they scalpture you, not being the person you want yourself to be. and one day when you are taking control, things will lose control. it's just simply that you don't know how to play with power.
a super star can't be a super star, just because she can sing or can dance. it takes more in one's personality that they can deal with what comes to them in a cool way.